Here's Chapter Six. :) It's been a long time.
Rin’s POV
“What? You’re going away?”
A wave of emotions splashed away the hope inside of me. I
looked at Len. I already lost one important person; I didn’t need to lose
another one. Len was a very special person to me. He had lifted me up when I
was in my lowest—I couldn’t bear seeing him walk away.
“Yes,” He looked down, so I couldn’t see his face. “My
mother…My mother wanted to come visit Miku’s country…and it’s pretty far—“
“When will you come back?” I asked, not minding the roll of
emotions that are probably already showing on my face.
Len raised his head and looked at me. There was a spark of
emotion in his eyes, but I couldn’t read it; it
passed by so fast.
“I don’t know.” He answered, looking back down. His hands
were balled into fists as if he was stopping any
kind of emotion to show.
I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry in his arms and feel his
breaths. Like what happens in mangas. But I guess
my life isn’t a manga, and it
will never be. This is reality and reality was never easy for me. I guess Life
must
be laughing at me right now, laughing at my weakness.
I hate being weak. Being weak makes you lose the people
special to you. I want to be strong. I want to
protect everyone I love and
never lose them.
But unfortunately, I was born weak and I guess I won’t be
able to change that fact.
“Will… Will I ever see you again…?” I asked, nearly crying.
He bit his lip as if he knew this was coming, but was still
surprised. He didn’t talk for a while. He closed his
eyes and opened it a
second later.
“I don’t know,” He said, as if he had been hiding in Fantasy
all along and just met Reality.
I don’t know what he’s thinking. He wouldn’t look at me. I
guess it hurts for him too, but not as much as it
hurts me. After all, I am just a friend to him. But to me, he’s not just a friend, but, the one my
heart chose.
“I-I’m sorry.” He said, his gaze still fixated on the
ground.
It wasn’t his fault. It never was. Len never did anything
wrong. He shouldn’t be apologizing right now. I
wanted to tell him that, but my
voice won’t come out. I don’t know if it’s because of the sadness or
something
else.
I’m so confused right now. I don’t even know what I’m
feeling. I don’t even know what I should
be feeling.
All I knew was that I started running. I didn’t know where,
I didn’t know why, but I just did. I wanted to be
out of Len’s sight before I
start bawling my eyes out.
I’m sorry, Len. I’m sorry I wasn’t able to say goodbye. I’m
sorry I’m such a coward that I can’t tell you my
feelings. I’m sorry that I
wasn’t able to make you happy this time.
Len’s POV
She ran away. I guess I kind of deserved that. After all, I
left her with such a simple reason. I don’t know if
she even believes me. Maybe
she’s abandoned all the trust she had put on me.
I don’t blame her if she hates me now. Her feelings are
justified, while mine are not.
It’s not fair for her. I guess I hurt her a lot, judging
from the face she wore before she left. She looked
absolutely depressed. I had
to contain myself from immediately hugging her and telling her comforting
things,
like she did to me for the last few weeks.
I’m such a weakling. I don’t know why, though. My mother
definitely isn’t one and I guess my father isn’t
one too, for mother would
never marry a weakling.
I’m such a terrible person. I bring sadness to everyone
around me. Everyone special to me always ends up
either dead or miserable.
I didn’t want that to happen to Rin, because, after all, she
was the only one who had ever let me feel that
way. But it did happen. Maybe it’s my destiny. Maybe I was just meant to hurt
everyone around me, even
when I don’t mean it.
I don’t know what to do. I want to make her feel happy. I
want to see her smile and happy again. I can’t
stand seeing her this sad.
I found myself in front of my mother’s room before I knew
it. Maybe my legs had their own brains and could
sense my feelings, so they
started walking here without me knowing it.
What the heck, Len. What are you thinking? Are you going
crazy? I guess I already am.
I knocked on the mahogany door of my mother’s room and heard
some soft footsteps. I guess she was
sleeping.
“Name.” Came her voice from the inside of the room.
“It’s me, mother.
It’s Len.” I answered, wondering what I should say.
She opened the door and let me in. She looks like she’s in a
cranky mood. Maybe this isn’t the time to tell
her my decision. Maybe I-I
should wait until a few days later…
Stop being a coward,
Len.
Wh-What? Who said that?
It’s me, duh! Your
conscience.
What? I have a conscience?
Everyone does dumbo.
Now let’s get straight to the point.
Uh…okay..?
Tell your mother that
you don’t love Miku and to cancel the engagement and you and Rin can run
away
together and everyone lives happily ever after. And I won’t hear your miserable
thoughts
anymore.
What? I think I’m starting to lose my mind completely. I am
talking to an imaginary voice in my head.
You are not going
crazy. Get it? Now go and tell your mother—
“What do you want to talk about?”
I fidgeted nervously, contemplating if I should tell her or
not. Or maybe I can make an excuse to pee or
something, so I can think things
over. And besides, I really need to pee right now.
“I don’t have all day, Len.” My mother insisted, rather
impatiently. “I have a lot of things to do.”
“Uh, y-yes. You do.” I answered. “So I shouldn’t be
disturbing you right now. Tell you what. I’m just going
to leave right now—“
Mother raised an annoyed eyebrow at me. I gulped and
prepared myself for the worst.
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“It’s so unfair. It’s very, very, very, very, unfair! I
can’t believe this is happening. It’s the worst thing that has
happened to me!”
Hatsune Miku continued on complaining to her only friend,
Mr. FluffyBear. She had been grounded for a
whole month and doesn’t appear to
be very happy about it.
She stomped her left foot and said, “And what did I do to
deserve this kind of treatment? I rode
a horse. I
just rode a horse, Mr. FluffyBear! How could they do
this to me!? It’s cruel, I tell you! Cruel!”
She sat on her bed and continued in her rants. Apparently,
she rode a horse to the next town and back
again. She had been gone for four
hours and her parents were terribly worried. Thus, she was grounded.
“I wish Rin was here…” Miku said. “She would know how to
cheer me up…”
Miku stood up, not wanting to be swallowed by her sadness.
She peeked through her bedroom door and
when she was certain that no one was
there, she quickly tip-toed toward the kitchen, where her ticket out of
the
castle waits. Yeah, she’d be grounded again when her parents find out, but it
would be simply boring
just sitting
in her room. And besides, Mr. FluffyBear is probably tired of hearing her
complaints.
‘I’m going to go someplace
far away.’ She decided. ‘Somewhere my
parents can never find me and
where I can stay forever and ever!’
Miku smiled at her thought and finally succeeded getting out
of the castle, without anyone noticing her.
‘I bet I’d meet a
prince there too. Someone who would give all his time for me, would never leave
my
side and would love me forever and ever!’