This is my limit. Last chapter of Forbidden for today.
Rin loved Len.
　
She didn't know when. She didn't know where or how. But she could definitely say why.
　
He was the very first person to talk to her freely. He was the very first person who made her smile since her mother's death. He was the very first person...to say that she had a cute name. He was the only person she could trust right now. And she knew that he trusted her back.
　
Rin smiled as she remembered times when they were together. The memories with him were engraved into her mind and no matter what she did, they would never go away. When Len started talking about his mother. That's when Rin first comforted him. She didn't even feel like he was a prince. She didn't feel inferior to him. SHe didn't feel like she was talking to someone who possessed mor power than her. He was just... a normal person. He was just like a normal person in need of comfort. He was hurt. That simple fact surprised Rin because she had grown thinking that the royals aren't like her.
　
She thought they weren't capable of emotions. They couldn't laugh. They couldn't feel pain. They have seen a handful of people get killed in front of them after all.
　
But there, in her arms, was the living proof that royals really can feel emotions. They were also human. They could also laugh, if they chose to. They could feel pain. They could be hurt.
　
After weeks of consulting her conscience, she had grown to accept the fact. She loved him. She loved him so much.
　
But what if he didn't? How would he react if she told him all this? Would he ignore her? Would he say "I'm sorry. I don't feel the same way?" He had a fiance after all. And she was really nice. Rin could never surpass the level Miku was in.
　
She was prettier, smarter, kinder. She was weird, yes, but her other characterisitcs made up for it. She had long, flowing blue-green hair that reached her waist. She had lovely blue eyes. She possessed different talents including singing and dancing. She could brighten up the mood when everyone else is gloomy. And when she's the gloomy one, everyone else would possess the same emotion. It was like...she could affect people. She had this special power to make people feel the same emotion she has.
　
She was everything better than Rin.
　
If Len rejected Rin, she could never bear it. If he told her "I don't feel the same way," she'd probably break down crying. There was no one who would comfort her too. If he rejected her, would they still be friends? No. of course they won't. Saying you'd still be friends after rejection would be like telling you that you could still use my used spoon. (a/n: I know the quote sucks. I know a quote like this, but I forgot! If you know it, please tell me through review)
　
They could never be friends if he knows that she likes him, but he doesn't like her back. Everything would be awkward. They could never go back to the way they were before. She'd be losing another special person in her life. And she doesn't think she could ever bear doing that.
　
That's why she would never tell him.
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Len loved Rin.
　
Ever since that day when he met her, he had always thought of her. She had always been running in her mind. She was nice and cute. Her yellow hair always seemed to brighten up his mood. Her blue orbs staring at him when he's spacing out helps him get through the ignorance ofhis mother. Her comforting arms wrapped around his body assured him that everything would be fine. The way she talks to him. It was different than other girls.
　
Other girls would be either so shy, all the while blushing, or would hug him as if it was the end of the world. But Rin wasn't like that. She would always act herself when with him. She would sometimes tell him of her dreams. Sometimes, she would crack jokes and he would laugh. There were also some instances that she would comfort him while he spoke his heart out.
　
Len laughed at the memories. 'Shouldn't it be the girl who cries and the boy who comforts?'　
Rin really is something isn't she? She was the only person who could comfort him. In front of her, he wasn't a prince anymore. He was Len. And he loved being Len.
　
As a prince, he could never show any emotions that would indicate inferiority. He could never be himself. As a prince, he had to follow his family's steps. As a prince, he needs to follow rules. As a prince, he can never ever talk freely. As a prince, he could never speak himself. And bottling in his feelings is really hard.
　
But when he was Len, he could always show his real emotions and no one would ever care. Rin even said that his actions are *ahem* "cute." As len, he didn't need to follow his dad's footsteps. As Len, he could break all the rules as much as he wants. As len, he could talk as freely as he wanted. Heck, Rin could write in his diary for him and he'd never notice the difference. As Len, he never needed to bottle in his feelings.
　
But...what would she say? What would her reaction be if he told her that he loved her so much. Would she say "Gomen. I don't hold the same feelings?" He could never bear hearing her say that. Just thinking about it made him feel... like his heart is being shattered to pieces slowly... What more if she really rejected him? In real life? He'd probably feel a hundred times worse.
　
That's why he would never tell her.

Chapter Four: his fiance

It was another sunny day at the country of Albione and the people were enjoying the weather for it was very rare in these parts. A certain blonde, however, was busy dusting the dust off the old statues in the castle. She was reminiscing the times when she and her mother were still together when she heard a voice.
"Excuse me?" A green-haired girl called out, "Could you tell me where the kitchen is?"
Rin turned around and came face to face to the princess of the neighboring kingdom, Miku-hime. Her green hair was down and she was wearing a simple dress. She obviously ran away from her guards to explore the castle grounds of his future husband.
"Miku-hime ," Rin muttered, quickly recognizing the girl.
"Eh? How'd you recognize me? I wore my simples dress!" Miku pouted.
Rin smiled at her. "Len-sama must be waiting for you right now. Shall I direct you to his room?"
"No," Miku replied, "I don't want to go yet. Do you know how boring it is to have about ten guards with you at all times? Well, let me tell you. You can't do anything. Anything at all. You just have to sit and drink tea. That's so boring. You agree with me, right?"
"Miku-hime, you really should be going right now."
"And besides I've been to Len-kun's room a thousand times," Miku continued, "It has this boring shade of gray. I bet he wasn't allowed to decorate it. Len-kun isn't boring, but he's uncomfortable when we have guards all around us, so it's very boring. Do you know how it feels to be with an uncomfortable person and ten guards surrounding the two of you?"
"Let me guess," Rin said, "Boring?"
"Exactly. So you understand me. You understand why I don't want to go back."
'Geez. She's as stubborn as Len-sama.' Rin thought.
The princess started walking around and looking at each corner of the castle as if she won't see them for a long time. Rin just stood there and watched her, determined to bring her back. In her imagination, the guards were running about, searching for the princess and Len led them.
"I'm not going back," Miku stated, more to herself than to Rin, "I want to explore more. When I'm with them, my world is limited when there's so much to see."
"Okay then." Rin walked toward her. "But I shall accompany you."
"You're just going to tell me not to do this and that."
"I don't have the authority." Rin smiled. "I'm a servant of the kingdom of Albione, not yours. Besides, I want to see what goes in the mind of a princess, may I?"
Miku looked at her for a second then smiled, "Okay then. But you shall address me as Miku. Only."
"Okay."
The two explored the numerous hallways of the castle and avoided being seen by one of Miku's guards. Miku inquired about each and every room and Rin answered her completely, filling her in also the castle's history. Miku felt comfortable with Rin and Rin too felt comfortable with the princess.
They felt like they knew each other for a long time. They were like best friends, reunited again. As they walked through the different places in the castle, they told each other bits of their lives. They understood each other. Miku knew how it felt to lose someone you love. She had experienced it too. And though Rin had never felt restricted, she understood why Miku felt that way.
"Can't we talk about something else?" Miku requested.
"You were the one who asked," Rin answered.
"I know that, but the castle is so boring!" Miku exclaimed.
"Then what do you want to talk about?" Rin asked.
"Hmm…" Her eyes traveled to the girl sitting beside her, "You."
"Me?" Rin blinked and pointed to herself.
"Yes you!" Miku stood up, arms making a V-sign, "Your history, your favorite food, your family, your likes, your dislikes and—ooh, the one you love!"
"What?" Rin was confused.
Miku rushed to her and asked, "Who is the one you love?"
Rin's thought drifted to Len the moment Miku asked. She blushed at the thought and shook her head at the same time.
"You're blushing!" Miku exclaimed, "So who is it?"
"No one," Rin answered quickly, afraid that the princess may see through her.
"Aww…" Miku pouted, "You're no fun, Rinnie…"
"Don't call me Rinnie." Rin smirked. "Or I'll call you princess."
"No! I might get caught!" Miku shouted, "I don't wanna come back yet!"
Rin sighed. Miku definitely wasn't a normal princess. She always overreacts. She's loud. She uses a lot of hand gestures. She likes to run. She wants it to be noisy always. She was very fun to be with.
"Then stop calling me Rinnie," Rin said.
Miku changed the subject, "I'm positive you have a guy you like."
"How are you so sure?" Rin asked.
"I saw it in your eyes when I asked the question," Miku stated, "You had that sparkle in your eyes."
"Oh…" Rin said, "What about you? Do you have someone you love?"
Miku's smile disappeared and turned into a frown. She sat down and looked at her feet. Rin looked at her, worried that she might have offended her.
"Yes." Miku answered, "I do, but I can't be with him."
"Why?" Rin asked, surprised at the sudden change of attitude.
"He left." Miku's gaze never left the ground.
"Care to tell me?"
"I'd rather not." Miku suddenly stood up. "Let's go to the horses! I always wanted to ride a horse! But of course, I dreamed of riding it with a handsome prince who's taller than me and we'll travel the whole world together! Oh, think of all the places we could go to! The scenery, the animals, the people! I would like to know their different traditions…"
Rin ignored the fact that Miku was emphasizing 'taller than me' to show that she doesn't like Len. Miku was back to normal. Rin was still lost in thought. She thought about how Miku refused to tell her the one she loves and how she looked so sad when she mentioned it.
Suddenly they heard shouts and they knew exactly what they meant.
"Miku-hime is there!"
Miku looked at Rin and smiled. "See you soon, Rinnie!"
Then she skipped off toward the bewildered guards and prepared herself for a sermon. A very long sermon about how she is a princess and how she should show it. Rin stared at the direction Miku went. There was definitely something bothering the princess. Even though she had just met her, Rin knew she was hiding something from her and she wanted to help.
Rin had always been one to help people. It was one of the most important things her mother taught her. In her life, she was able to help some people along with her mother. She usually gave a portion of her breakfast to the more unfortunate and they would always smile gratefully at her.
Even when she's alone, she still has the ability to help.
"I don't want to sit on the throne and rule over a kingdom!" Miku exclaimed at her father, "I want to explore! I want to see the wonders of the world! Have you ever wished to see what lies outside the gates of our kingdom?"
"No, I have never wished that," Satoshi answered her daughter, "You are a princess. You must act like a princess. When you become queen, you can have anything you wish for in this kingdom!"
"I don't want anything in this kingdom, father. I want to see—"
"Enough of this stubbornness! Another incident like this and you'll stay in the castle for a whole month, understand?"
Miku looked at his father with a sad look then left his presence. She wanted someone to talk to. She wanted to pour out her feelings, but there was no one. So she stomped all the way back to her room and cried.
Crying can't make things better, yes. But it can help you feel better. Miku always cried. Sure, some servants hear her at times, but they never bothered her. 'Strict orders from the king' ran through their minds.
Why can't her parents understand how she feels? She so badly wants to explore other places. The only place she had gone other than her and Albione's castles is her father's friend's hotel. That was where she made her very first non-royalty friend. She was ten at that time, and even now that she's sixteen, she could still remember it.
"Why are you crying?"
She looked up, surprised to hear an unfamiliar voice. There, staring down at her, was a blue-haired boy who looked overly concerned.
"Hey, answer me." He went down the stairs and sat beside her.
"…Papa scolded me." She answered.
"You know, your parents scold you because they don't want you to do bad things."
"…Are you sure?"
"Positive. Now you wanna ride a horse? It's really fun!"
"But…papa might get mad at me…"
"Hmm…" The guy looked up and put his head on his hands, as if thinking, "Then we'll be back really really fast."
He stood up and held out his hand. She took it and they snuck out of the building. It was Miku's first time to ride a horse and she loved it. She trusted her new friend and knew he wouldn't let her get hurt.
In the end, they were scolded, but Miku didn't cry. She knew that her father was just worried about her.
Miku cried more at the memory and remembered the time the hotel got burned. There were no survivors. Her first love died before she got a chance to know his name. She never bothered to ask about him after.
She tried to forget about him, but she never could. Every time she got scolded, she would always remember him. And believe me, she got scolded a lot.
'Hasn't Life had enough?' Miku thought, 'Life had been making me suffer for six years. Isn't he contented of all the misery I've felt yet? No, it seems like he's not done with me yet. After I've finally made a friend, I never get to see her again…I guess that's just me. I have a curse. I'll never get to see the ones I cherish the most a second time.'
She sat up and wiped her tears away. It was already past sundown, but she wasn't hungry. She could care less about food.
Then she made her decision.

GOmen. Too tired to put spaces in between. *yawn*

chapter Three: The Stalker

Len dropped his sword which resulted to his opponent hitting him. Blood oozed from his left cheek. His opponent suddenly got scared of what the queen will do once she finds out. Murmurs from the crowd were heard.
"He hurt the prince!"
"How dare he hurt my prince?"
"Since when did he become your prince?"
"Poor guy. He'll probably get sentenced to death."
Len wiped the blood of his face and stood up. He didn't feel the pain. He couldn't feel the pain. He felt something else, though he couldn't quite distinguish it. He began to run, unaware of his destination. As he went closer, he heard voices.
"Let go of me!"
Len recognized the voice instantly and ran faster. He saw a blonde girl held by a blue-haired guy who was apparently trying to drag her away and cover her mouth.
Rin struggled to break free from Kaito's grasp. Rin was strong, but he was stronger. There would be no other logical explanation as to how she can't break free from his grasp.
Kaito noticed the prince nearing and decided to just carry the girl. He ran as fast as he could at the same time covering the girl's mouth, perfectly aware that an outraged prince was running after him.
Len's POV
I started to run faster, the fastest that my feet could go. When I catch up with that kidnapper, I am going to punch him. Punch him hard. I didn't care about anything at that time. The fact that my face was still bleeding? I would've cared about it on a normal day, but this isn't a normal day. All I care about is catching up with that dumbass and getting Rin back.
Just a bit more…
I quickly punched the guy's face and caught Rin. Who knew a girl could be so heavy? Rin looked at me as if she didn't know I was here and I ran away carrying her on my back.
"L-Len-sama?" Rin finally said, "I-I can walk by myself."
"I'd rather not," I said, looking back at the weird guy, who was apparently getting up, "It would cost time and it looks like your friend is recovering."
Rin blushed, "H-He's not my friend!"
"Okay then," I asked, "What happened earlier?"
"I-I don't really know," she said, "He just suddenly attacked me as I was going home."
I could tell by the look of her eyes that she wasn't telling the whole truth. I fastened my pace and looked at Rin, who was slowly falling asleep. She looks so cute when she's asleep—Wait. What did I just say? Rin looked…cute?
Oh no, this can't be happening. I can't fall in love with Rin. I'm engaged, for Pete's sake! I shook my head at the thought and looked around. We were very close to the castle—one problem. Where will I put Rin? I mean, I don't know her room. We just used to talk at the kitchen and other places. Also, I can't bear to wake her. I've tried waking her before when she fell asleep and it wasn't pretty.
So I just stood there like an idiot that I am with a sleeping girl on my back. I also did not want to approach a servant and ask him/her where Rin's room is. No. Not with the mentioned girl on my back.
I walked back and forth carefully trying to not drop the blonde girl on my back.
To pass time, I made a mental list in my mind
1) Things I couldn't do (and reasons why I couldn't do them):
2) 'Wake Rin up' which would probably be the most logical thing to do if it wasn't Rin. Rin would kill me if I interrupted her beauty sleep.
3) 'Ask servants where Rin's room is' would also be a good start if Rin was a boy. Otherwise, the servant asked would get suspicious and spread rumors about…well, you-know-what. And I would not want to embarrass myself, seeing as the girl spoken about was on my back.
4) 'Bring Rin to her room' Perfect! Except that I don't know where her room is.
5) 'Leave her' No way. That pervert earlier may find her and who knows what will happen next.
6) 'Bring her to my mother' Uh-uh. She'd probably think Rin was the reason why I have this wound on my face and, oh, I don't know, send her to dungeon to rot for the rest of her life? No thank you.
Well, that was all I could think of and I found myself sitting on the ground (duh. What did you expect? The clouds?) with Rin's head on my lap. I sighed.
A few minutes later…
Rin looks so cute when she's asleep. I've never really noticed this before, but she's…beautiful. Starting from her pretty blond hair to her cute little toes (I removed her shoes because it was hot). I couldn't help but touch her lips. Her wonderful, soft pink lips.
…
I didn't kiss her! I just couldn't help it… She looks so vulnerable when she's asleep.
After a few more minutes of staring, I heard her groan. She slowly got up my lap and stared at me with her adorable blue eyes.
"L-Len-sama?" Rin said, "What…Where are we?"
"Near the castle," I replied.
"Where's…Kaito?" Rin asked.
"Kaito?" I asked, "Is he the guy earlier? The guy that tried to kidnap you?"
"Um…Yeah," was her answer.
"Well, he's…" I said, trying to think of a perfect word, "Taken care of."
"Oh," Rin said, getting up, "Well, um, thanks…"
"You're welcome," I answered, " I need to go now. Before mom kills the guy who bruised me."
She smiled at me and said, "Better hurry up."
I returned her smile and began to walk away. There was this new foreign feeling inside me. It makes me feel incredible happy and satisfied. I don't yearn for more. I'm contented.
I wonder what this feeling is…

Vocaloid fanfic-Rin and Len.
Today is Sakura day. The streets in the kingdom were filled with laughter and happiness. It was indeed a very special event for the people of Albione. Children ran around, chasing each other. Adults browsed among the stalls, thinking of the happy faces of their children once they get home.

Meanwhile, a blonde girl mourned near the castle. She mourned for the loss of someone special to her. The one who was always there for her and would help her in any way she could.

Rin's mother was the most special person in the world for her. They were nothing but servants, yet Sachiko made her daughter feel otherwise. She would always give Rin delicious food and together, when she had time, they would pretend they were royalty like their mistress. Sachiko was the personal maid of the queen. The elegant, selfish queen Kaori treated Sachiko like garbage. Still, Sachiko remained by her side and faithfully followed her orders.

Rin hated that. Rin hated Kaori. She always spoke badly of her. She was never caught though—until last week. She was talking to some of her friends and another servant happened to hear her speak ill of Kaori. She reported this to her royal highness and she ordered Rin to be killed. Sachiko, upon hearing the news, begged Kaori to kill her instead of her beloved daughter. Sachiko believed Rin would be the one who can stop Kaori. She believed Rin would be the one to save the country from the queen's dictatorship. That's why she vowed to never let Rin get hurt…

'But mom, if you're gone, who will protect me?' Rin thought, barely stopping the tears from flowing, 'You said I was special. That I was supposed to be protected. Who'd do that now? I'm just fourteen! I can't live by myself!' She kept saying those things over and over again in her head in vain hope that her mother would come back to life and apologize.

She knew it was impossible, but it was the only thing she had now. Hope. Hope had been her and her mother's friend since birth. Since they were only servants, all they could do was hope. They would hope one day that they would be free from the queen's reach and would be able to do whatever they wish. They would always hope that one day they could explore the places in the world without anyone watching over them. It was the only thing they had actually.

But to Rin, hope disappeared with her mother.

Their father, a dedicated soldier, died when Rin was young. Rin would always pray that he'd be safe, but she never really felt empty. That was because she never met the man. She never got close to him. But now, that the only one who kept her going—the one who had taught her most of the things she knew—was gone. She wanted to die too. She wanted to be with her parents up there. She wanted to be some place where she would be free.

But she knew that wouldn't be what her mother wanted.

Her mother wanted her to live. Sachiko wanted her daughter to experience life. And Rin wasn't going to break her mother's heart by committing suicide. Actually, if she committed suicide, she would end up in hell so it was not really of any use. She knew her parents would be in heaven. She had heard her mother's stories about her father.

He was a kind man, gentle and caring. He had always been loyal to his kingdom. He never betrayed it. He died in a war. Rin still remembered that day.

She didn't really understand why her mother was crying endlessly.

"Mommy, why are you crying?" she patted her mother's shoulder, worried.

Sachiko smiled at her daughter, "Your father went to a very faraway place, Rin-chan..."

"When will he come back?" she asked.

"I don't know. But he said he'll come back soon."

"That's good. I want to see him again."

Rin shook her head. She shouldn't look at the past. She should just go back to work or Kaori will be angry.

"What are you doing here?"

She turned around, surprised. It was a boy—kaori's son. Sure, she had seen him a handful of times before, but this was the only time he had seen him up close. His blonde hair, which was usually tied back, was down and he looked rather…handsome? He was wearing a simple coat with the [royal] family crest on it.

"You're crying," Len said which woke up Rin from her fantasies.

Realization dawned on Rin as she wiped her tears away. The prince saw me crying! What's the queen going to do once she discovered I snuck out to see mother?

"Uh—Um...I…" Rin stuttered, trying to think of an excuse.

"We were out of eggs." Was the best that she could do. Who would blame her? She had lost her mother and is standing before the son of the devil queen.

Surprisingly, the prince chuckled. Rin stared. She hadn't expected the queen's son to not kill her. There was a simple rule among them servants: Obey the royal family or die. She stuck to that rule, so she was stupefied to actually see the prince laughing.

"Don't worry," Len said, after a few minutes, "I won't tell."

She was more shocked in this statement than his actions earlier. She couldn't speak.

"Well, would you mind telling me what you are doing here…unless…" Len trailed off considering the possibility that…

"She's my mother," Rin said, pointing to the poorly-made tomb, "She died."

Rin rather not mention the reason of her mother's death, in fear of getting punished for bad-mouthing her highness. Len cocked his head to one side.

"How did she die?" Len asked, almost daring her to.

Rin gulped, "I can't tell."

"Why?"

'This guy is really getting on my nerves' Rin thought.

"Because I have a right to tell you or not, "Rin hoped he wouldn't punish her for her rudeness.

Instead, Len grinned knowingly, "It was mother, right?"

Rin was, for the third time, surprised. Is this really the son of the queen? She has expected him to be rude and easily irritated, like his mother. Unfortunately, he wasn't, so Rin obviously doubted him.

"I know everything, "Len said, almost inaudibly, "Mother has killed a lot of people. She doesn't really have time for me anymore. Every time one would badmouth her, that person would be either branded alive or killed instantly."

Rin said, "You…You don't mind that your mother is like that?"

"I do," Len said instantly, "I really do, but no matter what she does, she's still the one who brought me to this world."

Len added softly, "Even if I don't agree to her actions."

Unfortunately, Rin heard.

"You must really love your mother."

Len looked up. Rin had a tinge of sadness I her eyes yet she was smiling. She didn't want other people to hate their mother, because she really loved hers. She believed that every mother wanted their children to be happy, even if it hurts them and other people.

"Yeah…" len said, "By the way, my name's Len."

"I know," Rin replied, "You are the prince. I'm Rin."

"You have a cute name." Len smiled at her.

Rin felt the heat rush to her cheeks; she hadn't ever been complimented by any other human being than her mother. And to add, it was a boy and the prince that complimented her. This was indeed a very special day.

"Th-thanks." She muttered.

"You know, I know your mother. She was always by mother's side. I saw her get beaten up every time she angered her." Len said.

Rin gulped, knowing what he would say next. She didn't want to answer the upcoming question.

"But she doesn't seem like someone who would badmouth another person, though. Care to explain, Rin?"

"Len-sama…"

"Just Len please."

"I can't." She quickly replied, knowing that she would be in quite a predicament once the queen heard her address the prince as 'Len.'

"Fine." Len gave up, half-curious and half-knowing what happened.

"I…I was the one who spoke ill of her majesty…" Rin confessed, "I killed my own mother… But Len-sama, is it really wrong to say the truth?"

Rin looked at Len hoping he wouldn't do any physical damage to her. She had discovered that len was a nice guy, but she never put down her guard.

"I guess not." Len said, rubbing his temples.

"You should go back. Your mother must be really worried about you."

"I guess I should," Len said, "But I assure you, my mother would care less where I went. She'd rather count her money."

Rin didn't laugh. She learned her lesson. She would never disrespect the queen ever again. She didn't want to get killed herself.

"I hope I get to see you again, Rin." The prince said, as he left.

For some unknown reason (to Rin), she forgot all her pain and felt more confident. It was as if her mother was just there.

After that incident, Len would always accompany Rin in visiting her mother's grave and would even chat with her for a while when he had nothing to do. Rin put away her doubts about Len and started to feel the hole on her heart being filled once again. She had this unexplainable attraction towards Len and his unexpected personality.

Len also felt something for Rin. He felt the absence of parental love being replaced by his friendship with Rin. She was not like other girls. She would always try to hide her true feelings, while she was being destroyed inside.

Both of them enjoyed each other's company very much.